My whole family serves in music ministry in various areas of our church. Brian is the band director, I am a substitute worship leader at both our Franklin and Spring Hill campuses, Cooper rotates in High School, Middle School and the main service, and Gatlin is on the worship team for the kid's service -- so any given Sunday we are all spread out over the church. But this past Sunday was Family Worship and Brian, Cooper and Gatlin were all asked to be a part of the main service. I wasn't asked to serve for this service and I was actually quite fine with the idea of sleeping in while the rest of them left the house at 6:45 to be there for the 7:00 a.m. rehearsal.
When I got to the 11:00 service many people asked me why I wasn't up there on the worship team. I said to everyone who asked that I loved the chance to sleep in so I was perfectly ok with it. But as I sat there I realized that it was an ordained event - and it wasn't about sleeping in. The Lord used that service to calm my soul. I stood for worship and was just so aware of the fact that my two kids were on that stage using their gifts and talents to serve the Lord. They love God. They want to serve Him. They are strong in their relationships with their Savior. Peace. I started to believe that I could do it - that I could parent three more precious children and have the opportunity to lead them to a personal relationship with Jesus, too. And, I was convinced that Cooper and Gatlin would help lead and guide them in their Spiritual journey. I realized that it was going to be a good thing for them - a responsibility that I was confident they would rise to. Excel at. Enjoy. Grow from. Whatever it would look like, I was sure that it was going to be ok. We are a team. Calm. From that moment on I've been ok. In fact, I've been more than ok. I'm sure there will be waves of anxiety, but I'm gonna keep thinking back to that Sunday and all that the Lord reminded me. There was something special about it, for sure!